Posted in Career and Jobs, Challenge, Chloe, Life, random rants, self-doubt, self-love, self-reflection, self-worth

I need to wake up and get my arse moving.

Let’s talk about a stage right now that I am feeling quite alone.

I just passed my 29th birthday so I am no longer in my adolescent years. I am a newlywed of close to six months and so I am not fretting over any singlehood status. Even though I am currently unemployed, I am living with my retired in-laws so I need not fret that there is no one to chat with me. So why am I feeling all alone?

The loneliness is in the soul. It feels like no one understands the void and longing in me right now. Maybe even I don’t know what I need to do to fill this void.

Ever since two years ago, I started to become pretty spiritual. I don’t mean diving head down into a particular religion nor do I mean practising magic or conversing with spirits. I mean this growing and gnawing thirst in me to explore the unseen. If I were to time-travel and tell my 25-year-old self that I would one day lean towards spirituality, she would probably stare in disbelief and scoff. Seriously. I was that away from spirituality then. In fact, all my life I always questioned the common religions around me. Buddhism, Taoism, Christianity… I used to sit down for more than two hours with a preacher on Christianity and bombarded her with all the “logical” questions I have on her faith. I used to read the bible and raised all sort of questions to a few Christian colleagues who couldn’t answer to my satisfaction. And it didn’t help that the answers contradict with the answers I got from a Catholic colleague.

Whoa, hold on, before you flip the table, I am not here to dis any religion or faith. I was young and self-absorbed; my time simply wasn’t ripe yet, if you know what I mean. I thought the only reality that is real was the reality I can see with my eyes, smell with my nose, hear with my ears and maybe even taste with my tongue.

Until my then-boyfriend-now-husband introduced me to this book series called the Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch.

Honestly? I had avoided reading when he first shoved Book 1 into my face. Well, I just couldn’t! Looking at the title, apparently, it is going to talk about God and religion; maybe Christianity or Catholicism. I was so uninterested. The funny thing is, after some time, one day out of the blue, I had the urge to pick up the book and read it. No kidding. It was one of the “book urges” whereby I usually have a sudden strong urge to read a certain book and will amazingly find answers to my current issues/ problems/ situations within the pages. I opened the book and read it, and then there was no turning back for me.

If you know me personally, you would remember how I was a super no-God kind of person. To me then, there were a bunch of “loopholes” that I just couldn’t bring myself to believe. But the strangest thing happened: not only do I enjoy the book tremendously (the series blew my mind away), there was not even one doubt in my mind at all! It felt like I knew what was written in there to be true; no question asked. I really can’t explain why, but I guess the time is right for me to start awakening. Awaken to the unseen truth in the universe. it felt like a whole new world of truth was revealed to me. It was an amazing feeling that I wish I could remain in it forever.

Gradually, this feeling faded when “reality” sets in: job. Also at the time, I got interested in the idea of Law of Attraction (to primarily increase my wealth and luck). Though I believe in it (to a certain extent), I didn’t practice it vigorously like some successful and wealthy people do. Together with it, my mindset changed. It changed from thinking that job-is-security to start-your-own-business-so-you-will-have-a-higher-chance-to-retire-better-and-earlier. There was a period where I think that having more and lots of money is extremely important. I thus got dissatisfied with the life I was living. Snoozed when my alarm rang, pulled myself out of bed, commuted to work like sardines in a can, super busy with work from 8.30am to 6pm, sometimes needed to work overtime till 8pm or even later, commuted back home like sardines in a can again, spent three hours or so “unwinding” (which means doing mindless stuff such as camping in Facebook, Instagram, Youtube and reading novels), then finally, forced myself to sleep just to start the next day like a breathing zombie. It freaked me out that I would be spending my days and months and years like that, for the rest of my life. I could easily be one of the many walking dead and waited till my life comes to an end without achieving anything special. Or worth mentioning. How would my eulogy be like at my wake? Do I want to be known as someone who was holding a XX position in XX company for XX number of years or do I want to be known as a kind, loving, gentle, humble and wise woman?

So two months before my wedding (which was in Oct 2016), I quitted my job. People around me were shocked because I left my job without another next in the line, especially when I was two months to my wedding when I needed money the most. But yeah, I quitted my job. I kept myself busy with all the wedding preparation. Finally, my wedding day came and passed, I went for my honeymoon in Europe and came back, went briefly into another job for more than a month, quitted at the end of 2016 and officially from 1 Jan 2017, I am unemployed and… I am stuck. With myself.

Logically, I should either start my own business or find another job. Plainly speaking, do something productive so I am earning money and feeling worthy. Or simply to get people off my back. But here I am, more than five months after my wedding day, jobless, refusing to find another job, not interested in being an entrepreneur.

Honestly? I don’t really like the current me now. I quitted my job thinking that I would be starting my life anew doing great stuff. I started 2017 thinking to myself that I would take a short break, I see it as a reward for working continuously for more than 8 years since graduation. I told myself I needed some time anyway to adjust to being newly married and living with in-laws. Whenever people I meet asked me about what I am currently doing, my plans and etc, I would dish out the script I drafted last year but never, ever get around actualising it.

Less than one month into my unemployment status, I started to find stress coming from all directions. My husband, parents and in-laws would think that I am wasting my time doing nothing. Initially in my first one or two months of unemployment, I could straighten my back and inform them that I do have plans in mind, but I am simply taking a break now. I would also remind them that I have been out of job for only one or two months and it’s a normal thing for people nowadays to take a short break in between jobs.

But in March 2017, right now, I can kid myself no further. The same script which I have used on all my loved ones does not work well for them and me anymore. Me, especially for me. It is hard to admit it to myself, but I no longer feel good about my current situation. The situation which I have created. Some friends envy me for being able to stay at home without a job when my husband is providing for me. They envy me that I can lay around all day doing nothing. But what they didn’t know and what I didn’t expect was the stress I felt. In fact, it was even more stressful than when I was in a job (especially when my in-laws keep pushing me to have a baby soon). To be fair, my husband and in-laws are kind and understanding people who are OK with me starting a new and different path, as long as I am moving forward and not remaining status quo like now. I also became super sensitive, thinking that everyone (almost) is judging me, deeming me as unworthy and wasting my time. I told my husband just last week, when I think I was on the point of breaking, that why is everyone judging someone’s worth by the job they have and the money that they bring in? Why can’t they see past these materialistic points and see a person’s inner values?

Now, come to think of it, I wasn’t wrong but I wasn’t right too. If I were really doing something, if I were really moving forward, albeit slowly, I believe my loved ones would be encouraging instead of criticising. But I wasn’t. I was simply standing on the same place where I left my last job. But what came out from my mouth last week to my husband sounded more like lame excuses to justify my procrastination and unwillingness to move forward in the material world than pure and unbias opinion.

This is where the inner struggle comes into the picture. The thirst to find seclusion in this busy world and explore my spirituality self.

My logical mind thinks that it is best for me to either get a job or start fulfil my script (write a book, make Youtube videos, conduct seminars or workshops). But my wilful heart just want to find a quiet place and explore all the wonders and possibilities of this universe… spiritually. Sounds ridiculous? But this is really how I am feeling.

This period is unbearable. Maybe you are thinking, why can’t you just do one of these things you listed? Procrastination. Procrastination is really one of the scariest and most dangerous state of mind and being to be in. Instant gratification is so tempting that I put off things I ought to do that will allow me to benefit and grow in the long run. I admit I am quite a procrastinator for most of my life. And the scary thing about it is that I am beginning to detest myself for being one. I love myself! Well, I should be! Do I? If I do, why am I sabotaging myself?

What I need to do now is to strike balance. The balance between living in this real world and still practice spirituality in my life. I can’t believe it took me so long to realise this, to think about this. Balance! Unless I could abandon all things and find my seclusion in some high mountain cave, otherwise, I better balance my life.

So, what’s my plan now? There is no plan. I think I should stop making plans and keeping them all in my head only. OK, maybe I should have a general plan, to serve as a general guide. Not going to ramble about it much, because it would probably sound like another “script” right now. Just do it! That whatever idea which comes into my mind instead of fondling with it until it grows old and dies.

Reading what I have written from the top, which I intended to write about my spiritual loneliness, this article turns out to be some kind of self-reflection. Oh well. There’s this saying that Plans can never keep up with Changes, yea?

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Day 15: [X]

Alright! Finally! The 15th and last affirmation for this challenge~

Day 15: [Insert your affirmation]

Okay. I guess subconsciously I was avoiding doing this. HAHA. Nope, not exactly some lame excuse, but I have come to know myself a lot more this year: I may be a weird perfectionist.

Why do I say “weird”?

From my previous affirmation post, and of course, from my procrastination history, you would know that I am one pretty lazy human. I love visualizing sweet victories and perfect endings. But I hate the process of achieving them. I wish I could have a remote control which I could skip all the in-betweens and dive straight into the wonderful results. But alas, life does not operate in such a lazy manner, and thus the procrastination. My gosh! I feel like kicking myself now, LOL.

It took me a long time to start up this blog because I want everything to be perfect; it would take me months, or even years to write a book because I would want the book to be perfect. But life is not perfect. Yeah, I understand it, but I just cannot get around it.

Okay! I have digressed!

  1. Create your own unique affirmation.

“…what is one positive affirmation you’d like to create for yourself, to help you achieve your greatest success in life moving forward? What is one positive affirmation that’ll have the most meaning to you, that you haven’t already practiced/identified in the past 14 tasks?”

My affirmation:

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop. Trust in your heart, mind and soul because you are nothing if you cannot believe in yourself.

  1. What’s so special about this affirmation?

Confucius’ words are always of great wisdom. I borrowed the first sentence from him for my personal affirmation:

“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.”

I came across this sentence from Confucius in a train station advertisement board and it had since stuck with me. I am always tempted to stop progressing so that I can rot at one corner and shake my leg. I know the future-Me will hate the now-Me for not going after what I want with vigor, but I would still park myself at one corner and enjoy my inefficient Me-time.

No good at all.

So, this liner hit home. Nobody has set rules on how fast you have to achieve something; nobody has set regulations on the way and method you must obtain your goals. Moving slowly beats not moving at all. So as long as I keep my eyes on the goal, it does not matter how slowly I progress, as long as I never say die. This sentence has somewhat taken off the pressure and burdensome feeling I habour towards the “process” to achieving my goals. It has made moving towards the bling bling future a more enjoyable one.

“Trust in your heart, mind and soul because you are nothing if you cannot believe in yourself.”

This second part of my affirmation is of my own words and of course, it will be harsh, haha. I have to! For a lazy butt like me, honeyed words ain’t gonna help.

Numerous past experiences had taught me one lesson: always trust in yourself. Your guts, instinct, feelings, however and whatever you name it. Those I believe are my soul trying to communicate with me. And those times when I refused to heed its words, I suffer the consequence. Have you ever done something, for example, putting a glass of water on the table and suddenly a thought bubble came into your mind that maybe you should put the glass on another “safer” spot? And when you waved that thought away, you accidentally toppled the glass of water. That is your soul trying to communicate with you. I believe that every soul has a form of unexplained connection to this universe. Our conscious minds are simply not strong enough to catch the frequencies from the universe.

So, I have learnt to trust myself a little more. I will suggest you to, too.

  1. Say today’s affirmation:

“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop. Trust in your heart, mind and soul because you are nothing if you cannot believe in yourself.”

You can see more of the actual Day-15 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-15/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you!

Chloe ❤

Posted in Challenge, Health, Motivational

Day 13 [Health]: “I’m growing healthier and stronger every day.”

Hello, everyone!

I know, this is insane! It has been more than a month, where have I been?!

I have been working overtime (OT), everyday (no kidding), for the past month. This is a lesson I have learned by the hard way, and no way am I gonna repeat the mistake: the mistake of not planning my time.

Day flies when I am deeply buried in my job. I started the day tired and ended the day deadbeat. It has became a routine that by the time I reached home after a day’s work, I have time only for dinner (I skip dinner occasionally because it was too late already) and shower then, goodnight. And when weekend comes I just rot at home, trying to recoup from a hectic week, or I will hang out with people, trying to regain my “personal life”. Yet, I still felt drained.

THIS IS NOT THE LIFE THAT I WANT. I am so busy with things that are not of my passion or interest, and I feel so taxed by things that I am not passionate about.

There has been this nagging feeling in my heart for days when I was away from my blog, from all of you. But I did nothing. Sure, I was very tired, but that should not be an excuse! And then days became weeks; I am neglecting one of what really matters most to my heart.

I feel that there’s this void inside of me. I have procrastinated, lazed, found excuses to “rest”, and now I truly regretted.

This is not the life that I want. GET A GRIP CHLOE!

My sincere apology folks, please forgive me for being so dumb. Please continue to stay with me! *bash myself*

OK! This challenge is waaayyy overdue.

Let’s go!

Day 13: [Health]

Health is a topic which I have been very concerned about for this year. As year by year pass, I come to realize the one important asset which the majority of us possess but never put much thought and effort to ensure its wellness – Health.

Without Good Health, what can a person do?

  1. Identify at least one negative health habit you currently have.

That gotta be lack of self-discipline. And this covers a whole lot of areas. I should sleep earlier but I don’t. I should eat healthier but I don’t. I should stop using my phone or ipad or my laptop an hour before I sleep so as to ensure a better sleep in the night, but I don’t. I know that sleep is a major factor in life for good health, but I failed to make my sleep a better one.

  1. Identify reasons supporting each negative habit.

I have not really made up my mind. I promised myself to sleep earlier, but I will end up sleeping even later than the previous night. I failed to decide to really follow my plans. And I tend to think in a way of “this is my ME-time” as an excuse to ignore my earlier decision made. Very, very bad, unwanted habit.

  1. Identify steps to correct each negative habit.

Come up with a time-table. A physical organizer I am gonna keep, with my day planned according to the time-line of the week. I AM GOING TO FRIGGIN’ DO THIS. Sick and tired of being the lazy self. I am not helping myself at all if I continue with my current plan which is no plans at all.

  1. Say today’s affirmation:

“I’m growing healthier and stronger every day.”

My Afterthoughts:

Without health, we are nothing. Honestly. This year is a scary year for me… when it comes to health. I always thought that I am a “healthy person”, just because I have no major illness. But that doesn’t make me a healthy person! Ailment might be accumulating in my body on a daily basis from all my unhealthy habits, until one day my body cannot defend itself anymore, and BAM!

I wouldn’t wanna experience such a day, would you?

It may be tough to alter our lifestyle from the roots like, on the very next second, but we can at least make small changes in baby steps. Let’s do it!

You can see more of the actual Day-13 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-13-health/

Good luck!

Chloe

Posted in Challenge, Wealth & Money

Day 12 [Wealth]: “I’m financially abundant, and money comes to me naturally.”

Hello there! Today is Sunday, how was your weekend so far? Remember not to pack your schedule with too many activities…rest more and drink more water! “Me” time is equally important 🙂

 

Day-12, come on!

 

Day 12: [Wealth]

 

  1. Identify at least one self-limiting money beliefs that you have.

I can’t seem to save/ keep a lot of money. There is always “emergency uses” for my savings.

 

  1. Challenge these belief(s).

I need to be better in my financial planning and be more self-disciplined when it comes to money. I can spend my money like flowing water!

 

  1. Create new positive belief(s).

Turn money into my slave instead of being a slave to my money! I need to better manage my finances so I will not be at the mercy of money.

 

  1. Identify one positive step you can take towards your financial goal.

With all my long-term financial commitment right now, save 20% of my monthly paycheck! Also, to learn more about how to start a passive income stream!

 

  1. Say your new belief(s), along with today’s affirmation:

“I’m financially abundant, and money comes to me naturally.”

 

My Afterthoughts:

I believe that money is very real issue to majority of us. Instead of constant grumbles of why-am-I-not-born-with-a-silver-spoon-or-a-gold-mountain-behind-me or why-am-I-always-so-broke, spend real time to walk through the monetary issues that you have now and come up with solutions and action plans to resolve that! That is what I have done and is working towards now 😀

You can see more of the actual Day-12 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-12-wealth/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe

Posted in Career and Jobs, Challenge, Motivational, positive, self-doubt, self-love, self-worth

Day 11 [Career]: “I’m doing what I love, and earning lots of money doing it.”

Monday~ Monday~ today is a Monday~

Right now, my Monday is ending…finally! LOL! Monday is generally a Monday-blue day for the majority. That is because we miss our weekends and are unwilling to welcome another working week! But once I kick-start my week with Monday, my engine will start to run, and another weekend will be arriving soon 😀 HAHA.

OK, that’s a lot of crap as the beginning (that is what Monday will do to me). It is now Day-11! HAHA I know that I am super behind the schedule but. I am glad I do this challenge in a pace I am comfortable with 😀 Not as an excuse, but I feel that more time in between each day’s challenge actually makes me digest each positive affirmation better 🙂

 

Day 11: [Career]

 

  1. Identify your ideal career.

I love reading and writing. I love acting. I love listening to problems and solving them. My ideal career(s) will thus be a novelist/ blogger, actress, and a coach/ therapist.

 

  1. Identify three things blocking you from pursuing your ideal career now.

Novelist/ Blogger

  1. Stable source of income
  2. The time to write

Actress

  1. Opportunities
  2. Stable source of income

Coach/ Therapist

  1. Knowledge on the area of expertise

 

  1. Identify solutions for these obstacles.

Novelist/ Blogger

  1. Build up a passive income system
  2. Come up with a time-table/ fixed schedule/ roster to write regularly

Actress

  1. Research for audition/ competition openings
  2. Build up a passive income system

Coach/ Therapist

  1. Taking up courses on the area of interested expertise.

 

  1. Take action!

OH YEAH!

 

  1. Say today’s affirmation:

“I’m doing what I love, and earning lots of money doing it.”

 

My Afterthoughts:

I am loving this challenge on Career. Career has been something which is constantly on my mind ever since I was 13 years old, no kidding.

My mind and heart are two conflicting domains. The mind wants to find a career which can earn me lots of money (a paradigm influenced by childhood’s poverty) but my heart wants the career to of passion and be self-fulfilling and rewarding. They result in me constantly finding the career path which I will love doing for the rest of my life and which I earn me the income to achieving financial freedom.

Through this challenge, in the midst of penning down my thoughts on my interest, what I see as obstacles, and the solutions, I see a clearer path to attaining my dream job and life 😀 It also gives me the consolations that I am indeed working, albeit baby steps, towards my bling bling future!

I highly recommend anyone who is feeling lost in life in the area of career, to do this!

Good luck 🙂

 

You can see more of the actual Day-11 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-11-career/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe ❤

Posted in Challenge, Love and Relationships, positive

Day 10 [Love]: “I’m attracting my soulmate.” / “I’m in a loving relationship filled with unconditional love, trust, and respect.”

Hello Everyone! Today is a relaxing Sunday, woot!

I am having one, nope, two of the battles in life now, are you having one too? Don’t give up! Battles are always tough, but I am sure we will emerge as an even stronger person when we end the battles in victories! 😀

Without further ado, Day-10, let’s go!

 

Day 10: [Love]

 

  1. Imagine your ideal romantic relationship.

“For singles: What’s your dream relationship like? How would you describe it?

For those in a relationship: Identify your ideal relationship with your partner. It doesn’t matter whether these qualities are currently present in your relationship — simply write them down.”

 

For me, my ideal relationship with my partner is of love, respect, trust, understanding, chemistry, lifelong learning of life itself and appreciation.

All are self-explanatory perhaps except “lifelong learning of life itself”. Be it educational context or improving personal wellbeing as a whole, I am extremely interested and can see myself indulging in lifelong learning perhaps till the day I depart. Thus, my soulmate and partner in life has to be someone who shares the same vision as I do – to constantly improve oneself, because learning never ends.

 

  1. Identify simple steps you can make to this relationship happen.

 

It will be just two simple, yet it-will-be-a-journey-to-achieve steps:

i.  High Quality, Regular Communication: I need to constantly communicate with my partner on how and what I am feeling… this is of vast importance. One shouldn’t expect anyone to be able to read your minds… if you have that in your life right now, that is a blessing, but if you haven’t, don’t feel dejected! Dramas/ movies and fictions made this a “mandatory” criterion and beautify love relationship for the sake of viewership.

ii. Be the person I want my partner to be: Simple, yet the toughest to achieve out of the two steps. If I want my partner to be understanding, I have to be understanding towards him first. If I want my partner to trust me, I have to give him my trust first.

One cannot expect the other party to be “perfect” when one couldn’t even achieve half of the qualities one has listed out, yes?

 

  1. Take action!

Alrighty! On my mark!

 

  1. Say today’s affirmation.

 

“Close your eyes. Visualize yourself in the exact relationship you just painted in Step #1. Both of you are holding each other’s hands and strolling down the beach together, talking, smiling, and laughing. After some time, you stop to hug him/her, and he/she gladly returns your hug. At this moment, both of you are locked in a tight, passionate embrace. Feel the love, excitement, and happiness arising in your heart as all this is happening.”

 

(For singles):

“From this moment on, I’m attracting my soulmate, and in time to come we’ll meet and be forever bound in love and light.”

(For those in a relationship):

“I’m in a loving relationship filled with unconditional love, trust, and respect.”

 

My Afterthoughts:

 

It is easy as abc to list down the criteria and qualities you want your partner to have. It is also as easy as 123 to pinpoint the qualities in which your current partner is lacking of.

However, it may not be as easy when you gotta think and come up of the action steps to working towards your ideal relationship.

Empty talks bring no ideal future. It is time for all of us to be more conscious and aware in our everyday life and interaction not only with our partners, but also with the people around us. Once we are self-aware, we are able to recognise good/ bad points of ourselves and the other party, and come up with action plans to rectify. 😀

Good luck 🙂

You can see more of the actual Day-10 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-10-love/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe ❤

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Day 9 [Relationships]: “I’m in conscious relationships that elevate and support me.”

Heya Everybody!

How was your week so far? TOMORROW IS THE FRIDAY! *throws confetti*

It’s getting late, am feeling tired and drained, but I have not been posting for a few days… and so 😦

Work is really taking its toll on me, but I am still hanging on, hahaha 😀

And I hope you are, too 🙂

A piece of good news (?): I am currently in the midst of writing a looong post of some tips on a particular subject. It is getting super long because I am very excited and passionate about writing it haha! I can’t wait to finish it and share with you people soon!

OK, stop the random talk, Day-9, let’s go~

 

Day 9: [Relationships]

LOL. Funny how I chose of all days to work on my Day 9 challenge. And I swear I did not know it is going to be on Relationships. Lately… relationships seem to be the one thing which is issuing me a challenge of life. Handling abrupt changes, balancing, and finding peace not only with others but also within myself.

Ah… relationships.

No man is an island, yeah?

 

  1. Identify your ideal relationship.

In an amicable, supportive, open and honest relationship that is full of love and trust with the people around me. Especially the close ones, the loved ones.

 

  1. Identify places where you can find such people. (With the exception of our family which we can’t change,) Where can you find the kind of people who matche (match) what you mentioned in Step #1?

Mm, this is a little tough for me. Where can I find such people? I gotta say, it depends on the sincerity, rapport and willingness of both parties. They can be anywhere, even the girl who is in the queue in front of you and you strike a casual and friendly conversation with, or an existing someone with whom you wish to improve the relationship with.

 

  1. Identify action steps! Based what you’ve written in Step #2, what do you need to do to start meeting such people? Identify specific action steps, and include deadlines where applicable!

Is this referring to expanding my social circle?

Firstly, for existing relationships, be more proactive in daily life, such as with family, friends and colleagues. Also, be more understanding… must always remind myself to take a step back and think in another person’s shoe. But… honestly, that has been what I am always doing, and it does get tiring at times. The other party must bear the similar sentiment to make the relationship a better one. Otherwise, it would be an one-sided constant effort… patience, persistence and time will be the key factors.

As for expanding my social circle, to take part in activities and scout for interest groups. I used to join a Go chess club. It was so much fun! But I have stopped when life is more demanding. Perhaps I should revisit this particular interest. An appropriate time will be when I completed my Graduate Diploma in Positive Psychology. And it would be so cool if I could take up violin and tennis classes again! I remembered it was extremely gratifying when I’m engaged in activities of my interest 😀

Oh, and I would love to meet up with like-minded people on discussing and sharing ways to live a healthier life and have a healthier lifestyle! For some reason, I am currently EXTREMELY interested in this topic and have been implementing positive changes with baby steps into my life right now! :D:D Will share more details in a separate post soon ~

And and and… I WOULD WANNA LEARN TO COOK AND BAKE. Yep, you read me right. I do not know how, but I am VERY interested in learning more now. So I can cook healthier meals for me and my loved ones! Oooh I feel so excited just by the thought of it! Perhaps I shall first start with helping my mom out in the kitchen HAHA.

 

  1. Say today’s affirmation. Close your eyes. Visualize yourself surrounded by a large group of people, all of whom you have conscious relationships with. Imagine yourself chatting, laughing, smiling, and spending time with these people, as you walk hand-in-hand with everyone, through the journey of life. Feel the warmth, happiness, and excitement in your heart. As you do, say the affirmation:

“I’m in conscious relationships that elevate and support me.”

The Law of Attraction! Work your magic on me! NOW! *ting*

 

My Afterthoughts:

A slightly different approach on the topic of Relationships as I was expecting. It is more of sourcing and creating new and positive relationships instead of working on existing ones. Nevertheless, I never expected myself to mention my old loves: GO chess, tennis and violin! Time to include them in my life again! 🙂

 

You can see more of the actual Day-9 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-9-relationships/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe

Posted in Challenge, Motivational, self-love

Day 8 [Physical Looks]: “I’m beautiful, just the way I am.”

Hi Everyone! How was your weekend? I had an awesome one! 😀 And tomorrow is Monday… too soon! HAHA.

TOMORROW WILL BE AN AWESOME DAY TOO.

OK, done with brainwashing self, onto the Day-8, let’s go~

Day 8: [Physical Looks]

Yep yep, physical looks.

1. Rate yourself in your physical looks on a scale of 1 to 10.

8/10. *coughs*

2. Is this score 10/10? Why not?

Er, it is not. It’s all because of the excess FATS on my face, arms, stomach, and thighs. Nasty thing, but I am not 100% active in eliminating that and all I do was to… complain?! Now, this is awful.

If I dislike the excess fats on me, I should jolly well get my lazy fat a*s out there doing something that will help instead of whining about it. T_T Yeah, I am guilty of it. The caramel chocolate crunch icecream I had today was really… … Guh.

3. Grab a handheld mirror now.

Alrighty, it is right in front of me now. Man, I am b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l, wahaha!

4. Examine your reflection.

Yo, hi pretty. I have to confess, I look at myself in the mirror, like, really look at ME in the mirror pretty often.

5. Recognize your beauty.

OK, I am going to be shameless here. Regardless of the whines about my fats occasionally, I think I am beautiful, no kidding.

6. Say today’s affirmation.

“I’m beautiful, just the way I am.”

My Afterthoughts:

This challenge is not very applicable to me because, shamelessly, I have no issue with my looks. I guess I am luckier than a lot more people out there. In fact, I used to, on and off (jokingly) thanked my parents for giving me a healthy body and pleasant looks, haha 😀 Even though I dislike my fats, I know they would go away if I really take the effort to exercise and eat healthily. They are not permanent. It is all about the mindset. I like the part about looking into the mirror though. I figure that will help a lot of people who belittle themselves… even though I do not understand why anyone would want to do that to themselves. You are beautiful in your ways, and that is true. If you don’t believe in yourself… then no one will. Don’t be too harsh. Be a little gentler to yourself, yes?

 

You can see more of the actual Day-8 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-8-physical-looks/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe

Posted in Challenge, positive

Day 7 [Opportunities]: “Opportunities are everywhere. It’s up to me to find (or create) them and MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.”

It is now past 12am! I totally missed posting on the 15th itself T_T

Hi Everyone! Happy TGIF!

Are you feeling equally excited as I am now? I have worked from 8.30am to 9pm today and yet I am feeling happy amidst my mental exhaustion… because tomorrow is the long-waited weekend! *throws confetti*

It has been a suuuppppeeer busy week for me. Finally I will be having some time for myself 😀

It’s Day-7 challenge for today, let’s go~

Day 7: [Opportunities]

 

1. Identify an area of your life where you feel blocked by a lack of choices/ opportunities.

It has to be career, finance and health for me.

Career: I am still in a job which is not my ideal career. I am working hard to acquire more knowledge of my interest (positive psychology). Basically, I have been a people-person for my entire work-life, so I cannot simply job-hop to another field and expect to earn the same remuneration… Plus, another issue came into the picture, which is –

Finance: Due to some family issues and personal commitments, I am unable to simply ditch my job with its monthly source of income to indulge myself into a highly possible “income-less” period. Sad, I know, but it is the truth that I need this job right now more than anything else.

Health: As the number of candles on my birthday cakes increases, I noticed that my health isn’t as terrific as it was years back when I was still schooling. I finally taste the bitterness of so many other seniors before me… that I cannot afford to live in such a junk-ful lifestyle anymore. I am becoming more and more health conscience and my biology clock has recently sounded its alarm and I was alarmed! Time to take good care of myself if I want to have a healthy retirement life~

2. Ask yourself, “How can I create the opportunity to succeed in this area?”

Career: Honestly, I thought I am faring pretty well right now, haha. Even though this is not going to be a job which I am going to marry, I am certainly doing my very best at my job right now 😀 And by doing so, I have more opportunities to explore and uncover more of my abilities and capabilities I thought I did not possess. The challenges I am facing and the fact that I am still sticking around with a positive mindset… I’m totally building my resilience level, people! And when my bosses and colleagues trust me more and more… it feels good muhahah 😀

As for my actual ideal career itself… at least I am currently taking up courses to build a stronger foundation? 🙂

Finance: Live a simpler lifestyle. Or at least I am trying to. Or maybe I should come up with some form of concrete plan to do so? It is pretty difficult to find cheap food in the Central Business District (CBD) area, but I believe there are cheaper food, I just need to dig them out 😀 I am beginning to learn on ways which I can start and build some passive incomes. I am so excited to explore this area! And oh, I need to save 10% more of what I am saving now!

Health: Exercise more! Eat healthier! Enough said!

3. Take action on what you’ve written in Step #2!

OMG, so step 3 is on action plans!

Career: I need to get more sleep!

Finance: OK, just drop another dollar into my piggy bank 🙂

Health: … I need to get a new set of gym clothes. Then… morning exercise, here I come! Before this challenge, I am actually seriously contemplating starting my day with a 20 minutes exercise! Gonna be a challenge, YES, but if there are people who can do this, I can, too!

 

4. Say today’s affirmation.

“Close your eyes. For the next 10 to 15 seconds, imagine your ideal vision for this area where you feel felt blocked. Now, visualize yourself breaking through the obstacle(s) and paving the way to realize your ideal vision. Visualize yourself CREATING A PATH, WHERE THE PATH DIDN’T EXIST BEFORE, TO MAKE YOUR VISION COME TO LIFE. CONTINUE THIS VISUALIZATION FOR AS LONG AS YOU DESIRE, until the vision is fully etched in your mind.”

“Opportunities are everywhere.
It’s up to me to find them (or create them) and
MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.”

My Afterthoughts:

The italic quote of point 4 is of course, original text as advised by Celes in the original Day-7 challenge post.

If I am not wrong, this is something like NLP, and I thought it works well on me 😀 So many paths I can take, so many “starting points” which I can choose from, but my mind naturally selects the one starting point for me! And when I follow the instruction to visualise further, I see results! So, this is how I could walk my path to my ideal life! 😀

Any obstacles are opportunities in life which give you the chances to challenge yourself!

You can see more of the actual Day-7 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-7-opportunities/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe ❤

Posted in Challenge, gratitude, Motivational, positive, self-doubt, self-love, self-worth

Day 6 [Self-Worth]: “I’m worthy of love, success, and happiness.”

Day-6! Woohoo!

My 15-day positive affirmation challenge finally comes alive! *muhaha*

Cut the crap, let’s jump straight into –

Day 6 [Self-Worth]

  1. Identify an area of your life where you are experiencing some self-doubt now.

“This may be an area where you’ve felt negative about all your life. It may be an area where you didn’t feel negative about before, but you are starting to due to one negative setback after another.”

I would say… money. I came to realize that I have a spendthrift kind of financial blueprint. I could earn X amount in a month, and I can manage to spend close to X amount halfway through the month. This is bad. Even though my wages should allow me to save a reasonably sum of monies on a monthly basis, I manage to get myself caught in installment plans such as insurances, beauty-related programs, educational programs… they make me feel that money is not enough!

  1. Identify your dream vision for this area.

OH! Dream vision, we are talking about dream vision, yeah? It is to be financially free and I can afford to spend without guilt! I want more time to do the things I love without worrying about money.

  1. Create your affirmative belief in this area, in the form of “I deserve [dream vision].”

I DESERVE TO BE FINANCIALLY FREE SO I CAN SPEND WITHOUT GUILT AND LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE!

  1. Say your new belief(s), along with today’s affirmation:

“I’m worthy of love, success, and happiness.”

I am worthy of love, success and happiness. I deserve to be financially free so that I can live my life the way I want and spend without guilt!

My Afterthoughts:

OK, “self-worth” is a relatively big topic. It actually took me a little time to think of the areas which I feel the most dissatisfied with myself. I guess this is a good thing? That I actually need time to identify?

Honestly speaking, I have tons of things about myself that I wish for the better. My weight aka my flabby arms/ tummy/ thighs, my sensitive skin, my dark eye circles, I-think-too-much, money and etc.

They can be better, but I don’t hate myself. Yes, I do have points and areas where I can improve on, but generally I feel lucky and fortunate enough to be “me”. I am born healthy, pleasant looking, relatively good height for a female (I am 164 -5cm), always have good human relationships with the people I meet, decent job, habour dreams and am working towards them in baby steps, love to read and write and the list can go on and on forever.

This topic of “self-worth” can be linked to so many other subjects. Most importantly, I personally think that Gratitude and Self-love go hand-in-hand with Self-worth.

Have a thankful heart in everything and with everything and you will realize that the world is a so much better and more beautiful place to be in.

So… how is your Self-Worth like for you?

You can see more of the actual Day-6 affirmation post by Celestine Chua here: http://personalexcellence.co/blog/affirmation-day-6-self-worth/

Dream big and believe in yourself, because the power lies within you~

Chloe ❤